It tears my heart watching you fall apart;
Tears my heart watching you fall apart; to see your soul this numb-
over medicated, leaving you empty and dumb.
you aren’t the one I used to know, only recognizable in physical form;
you’ve seem to have lost hope in what you once found beautiful.
you used to find me beautiful.
I can see the pain, mostly feel it too;
It affects the ones which also care truly of you.
we hate to see the ones who love us become consumed of our doom;
and I too want to run away from it all- to be left alone in my empty room.
don’t be so selfish, share your heart; I promise to keep it warm.
I’m also falling apart- more and more when I see you sitting there,
lifeless, no joy in the things which once excited those mesmerizing eyes.
your mind only toward finding ways to achieve that poisonous high;
I wish you could see why it saddens me-
the little bit of happiness you exert as you prepare for take off out of this world;
maybe i’m jealous- at least I’m still somewhat human. I wonder if you even have such feelings anymore; if you even feel the way you once did for me- maybe its just trapped inside yourself. yes i’m jealous- when
you leave me alone in this cold world, yet I still hold you wrapped within my arms- the most i can do to try to keep you feeling safe.
A euphoric state takes over you; wearing away at your body- I sit there caressing each muscle as it exerts in and out of contraction. your eyes will catch mine for sporadic moments as they recess back into your brain. as they do, I’ve never seen eyes so blue-so crystal, so crisp- a hypnotizing hue. I want to cry, but no tears come out- for you’ve chosen this high as your vice- dependent on every dose-how broken must you feel; wishing the end was close; everyone needs that certain one to help them heal.
what more must I do to show you I am here for you- that it is real.
Each day becomes harder and harder to bite my tongue and ignore your affect on me. I enjoy your presence and somehow have become addicted to your company and each day, I make time for you- just to catch that unexpected moment of true laughter when we joke and be funny together; that twinkle in your eye when it catches mine- after connecting on a whole other spiritual level. but that never seems to last long; the dark clouds begin to roll in quick;
the fear is evident. off you go; breaking my heart once more- your soul-less frame abandoned next to me- my eyes filled with tears- I press my wet cheek upon your paled cheek; you’ve left me here alone- and weak. I want your heart revived before it is too late. before the darkness eats it up whole; spits it out as bait, for other weak hearted soul. There is still hope- for I’ve always cared for you, and plan to forever do. please don’t let this ominous bliss take over all of which you have worked so hard to achieve- you are such an amazing soul, your humanity radiates around; affecting us all; try to grasp on and believe. You are stronger than this my dear. I won’t let you drown just promise me you’ll stay float and always be near.
-i miss you
THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF DENTAL HYGIENE: DENTAL HYGIENE SCHOOL EDITION